Kenapa....? by Adam Ismadi

well... ini bukan lah gambar baru, tapi lama dah. the lata kinjang photos. nak pegi sini kluar dekat tapah exit plus north-south highway. tak jauh sngt lepas exit tu, jalan nya besar tapi berliku-liku sikit! kalau ada masa mmg pulang modal pegi sini. air terjun dia tinggi bnyk tingkat, dan memang luas, banyak ruang untuk picnic, mandi, relax-relax... it a short stroll up to almost the top of the fall, its like hmm 200m of hill climbing a gentle one, stair all the way. take your time, enjoy the view.



once you you've reach the end of the stairs there a hanging bridge that u can use to walk across to the other side. i sat on the bridge for hmmm... almost half an hour or so. just mesmerised by the view. its simply gorgeous! and the sound, you can practically feel the force and might of the waterfall. its a treat for all of your senses... sit back relax and take it all in...

well... this pictures was taken on the way back from my penang trip last month. long time ago, though it felt as if it was just yesterday. ahh... the good old times.

i think RED 104.9 is a brilliant radio station. the only station that plays indonesian songs and up to date dance music, and some foreign songs too... ie french. i normally stick to RED nowdays.

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...seriously now? dah puasa? yippy!!! i love Ramadan. its the month i'd try to be better, improve my solat... trying not to miss any of it. i do miss my mum's cooking... esp during bersahur. she would goreng ikan masin or telur ikan that wakes everyone up running to the kitchen like honey to a bee. i love her sambal sotong. its just the best!

here i am just had my first sahur this year, the menu, tuna and bread, vico and quaker oats. my mum did make some rendang pindang pucuk ubi. this thing would last forever, its really dry and very tasty! best eaten with a steaming plate of rice.

btw i am listening to Marcell's Semusim. its very mellow, ideal for sahur time, softly waking me up! though the lyrics are quite sad, i normally do not concentrate on them. his voice is so very soothing. a very smooth, not screaming stressful (ie anuar zain), not too high pitched (ie hazami), its just nice, relaxing and soothing.

though i really hate the lyrics! well what can i do... i wish i dont understand them, or better still haven't gone through it personally. to whom who haven't had the chance to listen to marcell, do check him out. he was the one who sang the hanya memuji with shanti. wonder if i can get his albums here, but i dont think so. i need to buy them from indonesia.

btw last saturday, on my birthday had a big family lunch in Sri Ayutthaya, damansara. The place is pretty, the food though a bit on the pricey side but they are gorgeous. i took loads of pictures and wanted to post them up... tapi memandangkan bulan puasa, nanti ada org sakit2 perut, tapi lagi parah kalau ada yg terbuka puasa pulak!!! hahahaa.... so later laa...

just wanna say here, do enjoy the fasting month, lets just improve on ourselves... selamat berpuasa and bersahur. banyak kan ibadat ok!?

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as midnight passed, while its raining heavily outside, and the intoxicating scent of the rain lingers around my room, i wonder whats with today? what is 25th October to me?

well what do you know.... its my birthday. this year, no party, no gifts, no greeting cards, no surprises, no distractions. its only me, myself and i. pondering of my past, alone.

looking back the years, i know, i've done my best to get here, and i got here in one piece. i gave myself a pat on the back. turning 28 is a big event for me. nothing to do with the number but my achievement in life. it seems that my life long term plan is actually right on track now. everything is as i planned it.

yeah, it was not as i would have hoped before this, but now its back on track. i'm on my way, i am glad that i've achieve my goals, professionally. as in work. doing what i am so passionate about, finally.

if u have to know, life have not been so straight forward for me to get here. loads of hiccups. mishaps. pit-stops. but the good news is, its all rolling again for me! yess!!!

and for all highs, bound to be accompanied by lows. something begins, while something ends... thats how life is. i just have to play the hand i'm dealt.

mixed emotion, happy yet melancholic, fullfilled yet empty, content yet wanting...

hugging my pillow to sleep, Happy 28th birthday to me...

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19th October, which is just 6 days before my 28th birthday, marks the end of a chapter in my life. well, as usual life goes on. pages do turn and a whole new chapter will opened up and the roller coaster ride will begin once again with it ups and downs, loops, twists and turns.

its something that every human would go through in their life inevitably. something most people say would make you stronger, wiser, and a better person in the end. though there are some truth in that statement, the changes it brings will take some time to adjust to.

notice that, even though i didn't mentioned anything specific of the event, most of u would be able to guess whats its all about. right? though some ends tragically, dramtically, traumatisingly... mine ends peacefully, and calmly. i am glad it happened this way. all that begins well, thankfully ends well for me. i am glad.

just let bygones be bygones....

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have you ever had that feeling, that gut-feeling, that something is just not going so well? that's what i am feeling now. though everything seemed all happy and dandy, something deep inside of me sense that something is not right. i cannot really point the problem coz i don't really know what is causing all this feelings.

well, gonna drown it all, and just forget about it, and hope that it all will just go away, by a nice long-ish holiday to terengganu. i'm off to terengganu tomorrow till monday perhaps. gonna just calm myself down and let all worries just drift away with the tides...

i love feeling of the gentle ocean breeze at night, the smell o the sea, the sound of waves crashing on the shore, the powder soft sand beneath my bare feet. this is gonna be good for me.

i need to let loose.... let it all be....

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my world has turned upside down now. trying to adapt to the soon to be work schedule. trying to get some form of routine in my life. which is pretty hard plus confusing in these trying times. and above it all i haven't start my new job even! hehehe... gonna get a nice long break soon. going to terengganu with some friends, i hope the weather is not too bad. sea, sun, open spaces.... ahh bliss....

looking out my window now in KL, seems that the sky is shimmering bright orange of the magnificent sunset, clear sky, no rain. its lovely. will have to place some priority into this blog else it will never get any updates. where is the rest of my travel pics? hmmm ok ok will post it soon. ain't procrastination a bitch! but i love it... damn it! hehehe....

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now i am swarmed with uncertainties, new job, new office, working hours. it is all gonna get pretty ugly. i have to adapt to the situation. i like to properly planned it all. like i do drive to the new office to note the traffic situation, how long will it take me to that place, where to park, how much fuel, tolls and that sort of things. but all this planning has its limits. i can never actually predict the traffic conditions under non-normal situation ie., there's an accident, flooding, road-block, traffic diversions, and so on....

maybe its just me feeling kinda stressed out, throwing myself into the unknown, the unfamilar territory. new surroundings. where to eat? where to have lunch? who to hang out with? how's my new officemates are gonna be like? so many unanswered questions! so many uncertainties. i HATE uncertainties. i like thing to be predictable, so i can forsee everything, act, work, behave as planned. from my experience, some multi-nationals and foreign companies do expect you to sort yourself out quick and start performing as soon as possible!

i've been told that the working environment in this new office is gonna be relaxed and low-key. huh, what a relief! though this can cause some problem with me in the long run coz i like challenges, i like running after things, exploring new stuffs, always on my toes. still a low-key company should be easier for me to fit in.

i love to stressed out myself for nothing. you i always expect and prepare myself for the worst case scenario that normally will left me battered and bruised for absolutely nothing at all! i should just let things be... let it be. lets just face tomorrow as it comes to my door step.

p.s : no harm in a little preparation though. one of my friend has a friend currently working in that office. i've asked my buddy to introduced me to him. i can get some inside story of the office politics, parking space, environment, who is nice who is not... hehehe... a little help wouldn't hurt! right? still, the key is just to breath in, exhale slowly and let go... let everything go... it will all be just fine.... relax...!

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its almost midnight, i cannot sleep. this is just one of those sleepless nights. it rarely happens but sometimes it does. it could be caused by either drinking too much coffee too late at night or because of some great news i received today.

got a call around lunch time, it was regarding the job i applied sometime ago. great news, all went through fine, they want me to come over their office to sign the offer letter. went there with a friend of mine coz i really hate to pay the parking fees when i am only there for less than 15 minutes! what a rip off, so park by the side of the building while my buddy stayed in the car. went upstairs, meet the HR manager, we chit-chatted a little, talk of the my new office, working hours, stuffs about the work...

all seems fine, read the offer letter. they left the starting date to me, i can choose when to start, how thoughtful and accomodating of them! i already have a starting date in mind, ask the HR guy if its ok, he said fine, so 3rd November 2003 it is. monday, my first day it work in the new office. i signed the letter.

went back to my car, pass the letter to my buddy, he went through it. until he mention of my post. i've never actually read the part about the post, i just go straight to salary! hehehhe... money is what counts... well sort of! never actually went through it word by word. the post they offered me is much more than what i expected!

its shocking in a good way. no... in a GREAT way. i cannot be happier. this job is gonna an excellent stepping stone for me to leap into higher grounds....

well perhaps i cannot sleep because of all the excitement and yes the coffee too! hehehe... will post the lata kinjang and bukit merah lake town resort tomorrow!

gonna try my best to sleep now...

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